Amanda Holden holds back tears as she recalls moment doctors told her they couldn’t hear baby’s heartbeat

Amanda Holden choked up with emotion as she recalled the heartbreaking stillbirth of her baby son.

The Britain’s Got Talent star, 49, was seven months pregnant with her second child, a son named Theo, in 2011 when she learned that the baby did not have a heartbeat.

She bravely opened up about the stillbirth in the BBC’s Dear NHS Superstars programme, which paid tribute to health workers.

The presenter remembered “screaming” with “no control over [her]self” when doctors broke the news.

She had been visiting Middlesex hospital when her close friend Jackie, a midwife, first told her that she could not hear a heartbeat and alerted doctors.

Holden spoke out about the heartbreaking ordeal in a new BBC programme (BBC)

"Luckily for us, an obstetrician was coming past and Jackie said to the obstetrician, 'Please can you go in, I can't hear the patient's baby's heartbeat', and then I heard this guttural screaming,” Holden said.

"It was the most bizarre thing that's ever happened to me because it was me. I didn't know I was doing it. I had no control over myself, I thought it was another person making the noise.

"All these women were holding me, calming me down. I forgot entirely that I'd have to get the baby out and I'd have to give birth for our son."

She said that giving birth to her son via C-section was " beyond horrific because at the end a little baby who has nothing wrong with him apart from being asleep is going to come out.”

"I kept saying, 'I can't hold a dead baby', I was absolutely terrified,” she added. “Just as the baby was going to come out my husband Chris had to leave the room, he couldn't bear it.”

Holden then told of how she then held her “absolutely gorgeous” son “even though he was fast asleep.”

“The one thing I remember is his perfectly formed eyebrows, which all my children have,” she said, adding that she will “do anything for that hospital because that's where my son was born and that's where we were treated like family members, that's the best way to describe it."

Holden and her husband are also parents to daughters Lexi, 14, and Hollie, eight, who was born one year after Theo’s tragic death.

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